I lost a special friend yesterday.
Her name is Xing Yun and I love her very very much.
My mum texted me yesterday that she fell and cracked her shell– so serious to the extent of bringing her to the vet all the way at Jalan Kayu.
I received the news at Music Ministry and I was praying so hard for her recovery. Later, my mum texted me again, saying that Xing Yun had to be put down.
It was the end of my CCA then, so only a senior was with me when I finally broke down and cried. My senior was really understanding…she gave me a shoulder to cry on (literally) and helped me pray for her. I was deeply grateful and touched by her actions.
I rushed over to the vet and I tried to say goodbye, but I saw how gravely injured it was, how she tried to scream but couldn’t.
We brought her home to pass on. I cried doing my homework, I cried when I saw her snowman, her mirror…I cried when I went to sleep.
Losing someone is so hard. Every single thing you see and do reminds you of them. I miss bathing her each night, I miss feeding her, I miss seeing her splay her body out to sun on the rock.
I missed her when I boarded the bus. I cried my way to school because I know, when I reached home, I would never be able to touch her again.
My senior told me that Xing Yun will always live in my heart. I hope she will because my heart feels empty without her.
Condolences never seem sincere enough.
I’m going to bury her now.