This one-shot is inspired by a song of the same title (but in Japanese) sang by Suga Shikao featuring Mummy D. and my dearest cousin/sister, Tsucha. She has her own wordpress now. (Click here to view)
This is a reply to the dedication she wrote and posted. Like a ‘no problem’ reply.
“Where are we going?”
“Don’t know. Where ever we can run to, I guess.”
I stare at your determined face, glistening with perspiration under the faint glow of the moonlight. Your dirty hands clutch my small ones as we race through the endless darkness, our itchy dark cloaks flapping wildly behind us. Our silhouettes camouflage within the dark of the town, stealthily moving. It seems like only yesterday the very first time we had met each other. And how I was before you changed me completely.
I was terrified of everything I saw that was not human. Even when a stray cat just looked at me and harmlessly purred to show its friendliness, I just screamed and ran away. I was a short, confused and gullible orphan girl who had nobody to turn to. I was always getting picked out by the richer kids, leaving me in my world where I never believed in anything.
The very last time I had trusted a human, they had tricked me into stealing from a nearby house. I thought that house belonged to them, and they claimed that their ‘parents’ knew and kindly allowed me to take whatever I needed. Well, you obviously know the ending. I was heavily punished. I received scornful and disdainful looks whenever I was seen ever since then. And a fury grew in my heart. I resolved to never recognise another human again. To me, they were all the same. Mean scums who took advantage of a helpless girl like me.
I don’t even think I had relatives. No one came for me or tried to find me, ever since my parents disappeared, or died. I don’t even know where the hell they are. Are they alive? I used to hope that they were, and I was just a lost child stuck in an old town, where I could only lurk in alleys and survive on garbage food and drain water. But it diminished day by day, and my heart never felt darker or flooded with despair.
Until you came along.
You were a flashlight in my hopeless universe of complete black. You started out as a faint glow, ever since you rescued me from the usual gang of bullies. I can remember your cheerful smile as you extended you hand towards me.
“Hello! My name is Selina. What’s yours?”
And I just gazed back at you suspiciously. I didn’t know whether I should trust you. After all this time, no one had ever helped me. Not even the old granny sitting opposite my alley, who was a beggar herself. But your eyes held sincerity and your heart seemed to have pure intentions.
Still, you could have been lying, but you helped me. I rewarded you with my name.
“I-Imera,” I hesitated, and tried to give you a scowl to show you that I was not to be messed with. My voice shook and wavered. I thought you didn’t hear me, since I was so soft-spoken and timid. But, miraculously, you did.
“Imera, huh. Nice name. What do you say if we became friends?”
That joyful expression on your face, that stupid optimistic grin of yours made me go red. Of shame? Embarrassment? I didn’t know. And even until today, I had no clue.
As we hung out together for a few weeks, I warmed up to you and your sense of humour. I couldn’t understand how we clicked. We were different in so many ways. You were taller and much older than I was. You were clever, I was stupid. You were brave, but I was afraid. You were strong, and I was weak. Pathetically weak.
I still remember, the time when you urged me to explore beyond the horizons of the alley. I stood in the middle, backing away, wondering if you had some plot up your sleeves and I would have to go through all of the punishments all over again. I knew, I had to do something.
“It’s too scary!” I sobbed, sinking to my knees, acting frightened. Truthfully, I was…of you and what you would do to me once we were out in the open. “Just leave me here! Go on your own, Lina! I’ll just be dragging you down!”
I thought my plan had worked, because you were too silent. And then, you embraced me. You gently took my hand and wiped my tears away. “Don’t worry,” you told me. “I am here. I’ll protect you.”
I was stunned by your words. We were two complete strangers before- two oddly mismatched people from two different worlds. We had only met for a few weeks…and you’d already decided to protect me, while I was still wary of you. Why should I deserve it?
And I watched your eyes as they told me the story of your sincerity and your pure intentions. Finally, I agreed. We tentatively moved to where people bustled around doing their daily things. Where sunlight was. Where freedom was.
And when we were finally bathed in the light, when I took in all the sight, sounds and smells of that little town I used to hate, my heart suddenly felt warm and fluttery. Even when I felt cold, hard stares down the back of my neck.
But I didn’t care. I had finally experienced joy. True joy.
“Isn’t so bad, is it?”
I looked up to you, your always smiling face, bathed under the sun rays, that brought out your confidence and elegance of a bright woman. You were shining like a goddess. My divine goddess of protection.
For the first time, I smiled.
You became my big sister. The one who always comforted me. My best and only friend I ever had. My family. My companion. You became my everything.
My star of hope and guidance.
Until this sparkly night, you whispered into my ear: “Let’s escape. Run away. And find our future.”
As you looked upon my bewildered face, your eyes told me softly, “Together.”
The main road comes up ahead after we pass several buildings. I look behind, as they slowly begin to disappear beyond my line of sight. Our hands grasp together tightly. My resolve gradually changes into: ‘Where ever you go, I go.’
I used to be a prisoner of my dreams and fantasy, where I imagined the day I muster up my courage and escape that wretched town and its horrid memories.
I was just a dancer in destiny. A disposable pawn where destiny controlled my fate and future. If you hadn’t turn up, I would have been tangled in its sticky web, never able to overcome it. Where it would entrap me in its snares and jaws.
Yes, I will escape with you to the morning where no one would stop us. To the summer where no one would bother us.
To our paradise.
We begin to board the train of hope, where our paradise await, in silver mists. Where we will finally find, our happy ending, as a complete family.
The day of our new beginning slowly dawns upon us with each step we take.
You guys should really watch Tegami Bachi (Letter Bee). It really is an amazing show.
I would like to thank Gendou.com for providing the English translation of this song and Suga Shikao plus Mummy D. for singing and rapping for this amazing mystical song.
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